| so as i sit and contemplate my life
i wonder back to before we were
come to me recollection
so as not to betray the one i love
i've sat many times especially during the early twenties
figuring i would never have anyone real to love
and love was all i needed
i had so much in my heart with no where to go
so much to tell with no one to know
my dreams were big but all too real
an empty hand with no one to feel
where was the reason i store all of this gift
where would i find the one thing to reveal
my life was depressed
many nights were spent alone
many afternoons with no one to laugh with
no one hold
but i kept on going i kept up the fight
i searched for you every day
i hoped that every person i met
would have your eyes and your smile
i asked every day for you to be there
my prayers were answered every day
i had you in my heart and i had your love
the hardest part i think
was that i didn't know when
i didn't know where
i didn't know what your hair looked like
i didn't know what your life was like
but i made it every day
i made it a little further with you there
you were there
i knew your eyes
i knew your touch
i knew your heart
your embrace was all that i needed
your presence was all i didn't have
i went on
i lived on
i made it every day
cause all the songs sang of you
all of my dreams danced with you
all of my words spoke of you
every step anticipated yours
every laugh left room for one more
every day longed for your time
just when i thought i had found you
another would step on my hand
one at a time i was walked all over
one at a time i thought all hope was over
but one at a time i took the days in stride
one at a time i picked up the little pieces
i wish i could say it was alright waiting
i wish i could say that i knew
that you would be in good time
that you were real
that you were waiting as well.
time would pass slowly and gently
not much to do but thinking of plenty
i searched and i traveled knowing not who i was
but the time away from all that i knew
left little of what i thought was myself
the pain and the fire that searching would find
left me not knowing anything
but finding myself
i look back this time at all of the days
that i longed and i cried for someone to find
and i know those days where nothing but right
cause where all is not right the battle is won
i found who i was and i learned who you were
i knew that we would be right for the other
i knew that you were just miles away
i knew when i found you all life would be right
so i carried on with all of my fears
i carried on when no one heard my tears
the time went slow and onward i walked
just knowing your heart and only my name
one day as my life was simply content
i heard a voice from a distance and smirked quite unlikely
at a comment on a screen and a simple reply
starting a long winded discussion of life love and why
the sweet little remarks that went late into the night
were the very essence of beauty and light in the sky
i saw beauty like none ever perceived
beauty so real so loving and pure
beauty with nothing but love to conceal
beauty that never has need to endure
the passing days that would follow there after
left me all but smiling and content with laughter
i would talk and smile then wander to sleep thinking
why is this happening, please let it be you
please let this be real and help me to know
but help me to keep a straight sense of mind
help me to follow not only my heart
but help me to know that its no waste of time
however many questions were raised in my thoughts
were quickly sat down and put in their place
i knew that this beauty would not be the same
i knew that this beauty knew also my name
all that i'd dreamed and all that i'd hoped
was for someone to see me for all that i was
i'd never had anyone know me from within
until the day that i saw my reflection in her eyes
the angel before me was the face of the sun
every time that i saw her all life had begun
what i'd longed for and hoped for all of the years
had finally found me and held all the tears
we walked and talked then we sat and we stared
we did all what felt right whatever we cared
then left all the clouds to go back to confusion
no idea how we'd make it but a hope to become
the days that followed were mixed with the feelings
every minute together was fairy tale perfect
but when we returned each time to the ground
the feeling of longing would refill our head
being with the one that i love
while being so far from her arms
this is the definition of the tragic comedy
with love came pain with longing came beauty
the further apart we were the closer we became
the closer we grew the harder the pain
where once i hurt for no one to hold
i hurt now all the more for my one and only love
where does the time go
how can it fly so fast
while creeping so slow
while covering up the past
there was a time when you weren't there
there was a time long ago
or was it just yesterday my heart was alone
or was it not real, were you there, i don't know
when can i see you where can we meet
i can't go on without our hands tight
i know that this forever distance
is only for a short while
but when you aren't next to me
with time a minute is a more a mile
then there was the middle
the time that stands so still
we were so far apart
but our hearts were as close as one
if our reality were only existent
in the minds of our hearts
we were always together
we never spent time apart
but our lives were stuck in reality
and what's real is always tragic
though our hearts were close together
the space between was to hard to bare
the time apart was spent as two in love
as two in love we struggled for time
the time we needed was time to hold
and to hold we did in the time we could find
the time we did find was storybook love
your eyes were flirtatious and a smile to die
i tried my best to impress to win you over
you just grinned and thought "no need to even try"
there was no need for perfection
no need to try and gain
we had each others' hearts forever
never a need to win them back again
every time we went to visit the other
it was as though no time had gone
between the last time we stood and cried
and saw the other drive away home
to dream during the day all is thought to be pure
so it was with our time together
to dream in the night is still pure but unconscious
so it was with our time apart
for when we were together all time stood still
all moments were just right
we laughed and cried held hands made memories
all moments that never made regret
and when we were ripped apart by this life
we made the best of the pain
we dreamt of better times we'd spend together
like holding hands in a field or kissing in the rain
then before we knew it the time had come
we saw the light near the tunnel's end
finally had come the moment, all was right
at the end of every day we would be hand in hand
your mile stone had finally been crossed
and another found the same path
we found ourselves in the same town
and our love could grow forever at last
what we thought to be the deepest of love
we found we'd only scratched the surface
the faces that we'd fallen in love with at the start
would be transformed into a love immersed in grace
if we'd known what we'd found from the start
we rediscovered everything all over again
when finally united in the town where we met
we had the chance to fall in love over and over again
now here we are in a life made our own
in a life that is real throughout
with a love that is tried with true thoughts and fears
we've each found the one we can't live without
what was before a dream to come true
one that was formed from our hearts
is now in our hands before us today
telling us to get on from this start
your smile is the one that was with me forever
the one that would fill my deepest of needs
if ever there was more beauty within
it was made up, or better, one in a dream
from longing all of the days that i've been
for always knowing that you'd find me one day
i knew the minute i felt who you were
that everything was always supposed to be this way
and so i'll never be cured from this deepest of love
i'll always know that you were made just for me
i know that no other is as beautiful as you
so please join me this life and forever we'll be.
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| when i stare at the sun
i see your face
when i feel the wind
i hear your voice
i sit outside
and you're with me
i walk in my thoughts
and you're holding my hand
my time alone
is spent in your presence
my silence
is your song in my ear
come with me
when no one is around
come with me
when the stars swirl around
come with me
to ride the simple breeze
hold my hand
to keep it warm in the cold
kiss my cheek
to fill my heart with joy
smile
to blind my eyes
i missed you today
like i miss you every day
when i'm overwhelmed by crowds
i'm by myself
rather i'm with you
every moment every time
if i were a writer
you would be my song
if i were a painter
you would be my beauty
if my days were a movie
you would be my romance
if my life were a tale
you would be my princess
to live on
your love is my dream
to dream on
your life is my longing
when i hope
you hope with me
when i listen
your song guides me on
when i wait
you carry me to the place i love to be.
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| my love my love
my thoughts are trapped
my love my angel
your beauty surrounds
forever my heart will search for yours
my heart my love
my dreams are with you
my love my beauty
your hand i will carry
always your love will guide my way
my light my love
my heart is but a vessal
my love my love
your smile revives
forever your heart will make me smile
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| early during this beautiful morning
your smile made me giggle out loud
i thought of the times you just turned to me
and smiled
i couldn't help myself but love
late at the end of such a long day
your voice settled my tired heart
we talked and we laughed and told each other
i love you
i can't keep myself from smiling
settling in the middle of this slow solemn life
your love keeps me holding on
i think of your smile and your voice
and i smile
i want nothing more than you here
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| when the air is new and the light is soft
my mind is quietly in your thoughts
i dream of you and long for you
forever holding your heart in mine
when i mess up and things aren't fair
my heart is strongly wrapped in yours
i try my best and speak words true
always hoping you don't mind
when my day is long and you are tired
my hand will always be for yours
i offer my love and cry for you
always striving for a heart so kind
when i see you again and hold you close
my heart will be complete once again
i will squeeze you tight and say to you
forever together our hearts will be fine
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